ohhai new friends.

So on Saturday I had my 'shit can't get any worse' night. I slipped into old, negative habits and just wrapped myself up in self pity, self loathing and judgement. I knew I needed to bathe in that for a while, because Sunday I woke up feeling better - I know that it does not make sense, but it's how I work, okay?! Good.

To start getting my two feet back on the ground and cheering myself up, I decided to do a water cleanse/water fast (more a mental thing as I know not eating is unhealthy). Also, my stomach was not feeling that well so I opted for cool delicious water. Plus this cool 'nu green' concentrate from I picked up from the store which gave me the energy boost that I needed while also giving me a whole whack of nutrients and minerals; all the good stuff.

you can taste the greens in it, but with a sweet tang so it goes down easy. 

I also picked up some protein powder, I feel a part of the reason I've been eating just so darn crappy is because I don't have time to make food and have been needing something just to throw in the blender (or mix with water) and I'd get a blast of energies and stuff. I've tried Vega products before, and I love them as their dairy, gluten and soy free with no added sugar. I tried it in a protein smoothie just last night, and it was phenomenal. I'm now hooked.

delicious vega berry blast.

 I feel like I'm doing product placement. But after every yogi I know seems to rant and rave about Komboocha I decided to try it. Now, with this silly little bottle I opened it in the car not realizing Komboocha is fizzy; I had been shaking it, turning it upside down reading the sides all in the store so I was amazed that when I opened it the drink went EVERY WHERE. That's not even the worst part, because there is sediment on the bottom, I kept shaking it so I'd be able to drink the sediment (waste not, right?). All this while I was driving, but I kept laughing at how ridiculous I am. Sometimes I just don't think things through. The weirdest part though, was that I legitimately felt buzzed after drinking this -- I was at work, so that's not really cool... I did some research and because it is a fermented drink there is some alcohol content (though below 0.5% as per government regulations to be labelled as non-alcoholic). But there has been much debate about the alcohol content in Komboocha. Unfortunately, I didn't find any recent studies. So, basically, it's delicious and fizzy and helps with digestion and makes your tummy feel better. I won't be buying it in big batches as it's super expensive ($4.50 a pop).

MMM, KOMBOOCHA!

I feel a little guilty for spending so much money (by a little guilty I mean a lot), but trying not to focus too much on that as I know in October I won't be spending that much money (at least I hope not). But buying these things has made me feel better in the sense that at least I know my diet will be taken care of, I still need to eat a tonne more vegetables, but so far so good.

I've started my regular practice again, which is helping me out a lot. I'm still working on being able to meditate the whole class, as in no thoughts what so ever, but I'm getting there. A couple times now there have been teachers trying to talk to me during class and I don't know how to answer and can't because to me the room is not a place for speaking, it's a time of reflection and peace. But I'm getting there. I'm worried about this weekend when I will be trying for the second time this teacher training to teach hatha yoga, so that includes two weekends (Friday, Saturday, Sunday) of training, then a practicum (8 hours) then getting evaluated. All that before the 31st of October. Fun, right? It's not just the time frame that gets me, it's that I don't know how good of a teacher I'll be. I don't know that I'll be able to teach something I don't know myself. I guess that will be part of the learning process. After that, I think I'm going to try and do this 200 hour teacher training for power yoga or maybe another type. At any rate, MORE YOGA.

In terms of general health, I need to start other activities because as much as I love yoga I need to be challenged in a different way. Exploring time!

In all, I'm back on my happy little path with the help and support of some amazing friends of mine, and I hope I can return to them the same love and support. 

Okay, I guess it's time to start memorizing glycolysis.

"Can we be like the lotus? Can we swallow the pain and confusion of life, and thrive on it, and use it to become one of those rare jewels of the world -- a truly compassionate person?" -- buddhism metaphor